Ashamed August 26, 2015

³¹ The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”  Mark 12:31 ESV


²¹ For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.  Matthew 6:21 ESV

For most bloggers, the aim is to gain as many readers as possible.  The reason for this is usually two fold:  1.  Share ideas/thoughts with as wide an audience as possible.  2.  Generate income through advertising.  My focus has always been as a way to record my thoughts and an accountability piece for my quiet times.  With today's entry, I am exceedingly glad there is not a reading audience of more than two.  (Thanks Dad and Jo.)

For those that know me, I am always on the lookout for the next best thing.  Whether it is cars, motorcycles, or educational trends, long-term satisfaction has been elusive.  Over the past several  years, this has improved a great deal, but there when it comes to motorcycles, I still have that grass-is-always-greener mentality.  I am currently in that frame of mind with my 2009 VStar.

I purchased this bike just 5 months ago and have already sold it on Craigslist.  With the cash almost in hand, I have started another CL search for its replacement.  Earlier today I found it!  A 2007 Triumph America with two-tone cream and blue paint.  Only 1900 original miles with price tag of $4300.  The revenue from the VStar will cover the cost and leave a bit left over.  However there are two giltches.  First it was posted 7 hours before I saw the listing.  This is enough time for someone else to have purchased the bike.  Second, the only way to contact the seller is through email.  So I have to email then wait. . . and wait. . . and wait.  I don't wait well.

You may be thinking neat story (or perhaps not), but what does this have to do with a spiritual growth blog.  Here is where I have to hang my head.

After sending the email to the owner I spoke a passionate, pleading prayer to God that a deal for the bike would materialize.  That in itself was not problematic, but when it hit me that my prayer intensity for the motorcycle deal was greater than any prayer I had offered this week for others' healing or salvation, wisdom, protection,etc. I was truly ashamed.

What a holy, righteous guy I have become!  A motorcycle prayer is more heart-felt than for the homeless.  A collection of nuts and bolts received more prayer passion than the soul of others.

Please pray that I will be convicted and oppressed until I get my prayer priorities straight.